haha!

:D:D:D:D

2011-07-02T21:47:00.002+08:00

To the person who found my wallet: Tarry/Terry? THANK YOU SO SO SO MUCH.

I can't believe I didn't notice my wallet was gone.

I can't believe you drove all the way from Plaza Singapura to my house just to return my purse. I have no idea what I did to deserve this, all I can say is I'm really really really lucky to have crossed paths with a good Samaritan like you.

You're truly a great guy and you'll be blessed!!! :)

AHHH LIFE IS GOOD. If only there were more Terrys around, the world will be a much much better place...

It's just goodnight and not goodbye

2011-05-29T11:41:00.003+08:00

(In the mood to post because 1. Listening to Taylor Swift now 2. AA yesterday!!!)

RG AA 2011: Uncanny Valley <3

So... holidays have started and it started off really well thanks to AA 2011.

I mean what can I say? No doubt I felt pretty apprehensive that our batch had to organize AA this year, perform and everything, but boy not only did everything work out, it was a BLAST!

I hope everyone who attended it felt the same way :) It was not just fun, it was magical. I totally felt hyped up, super energetic and of course the warm and fuzzy feeling came in too.

It wasn't just the actual thing itself. The WHOLE DAY was amazing. It was so fun to be freaking out over last minute things, and learning the dance, running through the dance so many million time with Heather, The man, Denise and Cherine and others who just learnt most of it today. Ripping shirts.

And of course it was really a day I could really put behind all the stressful things going on in my mind and really focus on something this exciting and fun. Honestly speaking I had a very bad day on Friday after PSC stress and of course many other things, plus I couldn't finish my AA gifts in time so I majorly freaked out at night. I was mad stressed but AA saved my life if not for AA I probably would've fainted and spent my night in the hospital haha.

But really.

I thought it was just gonna be another one of those Guides events. I thought it was just gonna be any other AA. I thought I was just gonna come home and forget about it.

But it wasn't.

I found myself smiling the entire way home, I didn't even mind when I was the last one to shower at 11.45, I did mind the glitter but got over it soon, I wrote a random note to a stranger because I felt so fuzzy inside, I couldn't stop thinking about how great the night (and day was), how I had my whole Guides family with me, how B11ATCH is always ALWAYS there for me. I love B11ATCH sosososoooooooo much I could never ever express it in words. Gosh the last time I really felt this way was in Taylor Swift's concert.

AA this year was simply enchanting. I can't bring myself to admit that it's our last AA, and it's over.

Reflections

So I had a bad day on Friday. Bad thing was, well I felt down and completely bare, I felt like a nothing and I was completely disenchanted. Funny how I managed to compose myself quite quickly despite all of that, and sort of hide it within myself so people couldn't tell. I guess I don't really want people to think I'm the kind who can't get over things easily. Well truth is I'm not.

But I'm quite pleased with the fact that I actually can make myself get over things easily. At least emotion-wise. I'll just keep telling myself to put myself in someone else's shoes, not to complain, and of course something I always tell my mum when she's hyperventilating over spilt water: It's done, it's done. Move on man. No point crying over spilt water get something done right, at the very least.

I thank my friends, B11ATCH, RG Guides for making me feel so much better the next day.

Holidays!

Yay, so this is very exciting for everyone :) There really wasn't any holiday mood going on I felt as if it was just another week, actually. Guess I'm too tensed up.

But for this year's June hols I decided to make a plan for myself, a list of things I have to accomplish by the time term starts. I don't want my June holidays to be another wasted month of my life, the kind of sucky hols where I return to school and feel like a dumb bird not knowing anything and regretting why I did not spend my time more wisely and make use of June hols better.

1. Academics

I think I really need to push myself! No idea what I did for the past half year I feel like I really didn't deserve marks for some of them e.g. History, SS and maybe Geog. Seriously I didn't mug or study for it esp. History I just read through the notes and did not memorise anything. And of course my disgusting Sciences -.-

Focus subjects would be: Chinese, Math, History, Sciences.

2. Personal Stuff

Yeah of course there's this. Some people may know what I've been up to the past month... haha well I'm gonna do more of it since there's more time, hopefully better ones will come soon! It's really fun and de-stressing so obviously I'm not quitting :) Also I want to spend more time with my family - go out with em more, do more things for them, stop being such a fussy kid and stuff. Spend more time with my friends. Start planning what I wanna do in future. Oh wait I already decided. Then I guess work towards it! And then, there's sleep. I need to get at least 8 hours of sleep on average, it's impossible to achieve that everyday so :)

3. Volunteer work/Good stuff for the people

If possible, I'd very much love to return to ACRES. After 1 1/2 year gosh I hope they haven't forgetten the silly girl and her friends who go down at really random dates doing crazy things. But this definitely needs some planning and coordination, I need to get my friends down to do it together with me because I can't go all the way down to CCK and do this alone.

YFC. Signed up for quite a few with Sheryl, Desiree and Amelia, and some with other people too. Can't wait for that!

Others: Well I've had plans to do something totally random and insane so maybe I should start now. Since I intend to bake a lot during the holidays, I'll probably go down to a nearby kindergarten or something to give it out! And also get my mum to bring me to the places she goes when she volunteers to help out and also the Old Folk's Home and Singapore Cancer Society.

One month isn't very long, but I guess I'll try to do as much as I can? Listening to 'Loser Like Me' now, I love this song. I absolutely love the fact that I'm just an ordinary, average girl living a normal life (well so I can fantasize and dream of that extraordinary life I've always wanted hahah) and being a complete loser! What? Being a loser is cool too okay.

Peace to the world.

I never knew pencils were my best friend.

2011-04-16T22:34:00.002+08:00

Tonight I got dear Sheryl to write an 'About Me' for me. An 'About Brillia'.

This is what she came up with.

My name is Brillia Soh Hui Tian.

My IC is S

I live in Bishan.

I'm in PSB (Punch Soh Brillia) and am proud of it.

I'm short, but don't look down on me.

When I bathe (and poop), I like to sing.

And rap.

And compose songs.

I'm annoyed by those who don't like to sing.

Nor rap.

Nor compose songs.

I write really s l o w l y.

That's because I'm a perfectionist.

A dog is a man's best friend, but a pencil is my best friend. It can be easily erased.

I like being clean.

Bathing just isn't enough. If only apple can invent a new iScrub to scrub the (invisible) intestines out of bacteria.

I want to name my kid flour because I like eating flour.

Chemistry and History are currently screwing up my life.

And most of all, I love Sheryl.

And of course, Mao.

By Sheryl

2011-04-09T22:40:00.002+08:00

Yay! Haha this blog is so dead oh whatever.

Feeling a little troubled and annoyed so I decided to blog about it ...for no apparent reason! :P

Yup so Person X was being very annoying. Well not really, more like I'm getting annoyed already. I really never understand how people can be so self-absorbed at times -well I guess it's fine if it'a a one-off thing, a joke or something but seriously?! Could you just please stop. It's not even fun anymore, it never was so pleaseeeeeeeee I really don't get the point of all this :/

The fact that I'm even saying all this just means it has gotten to a point I can't even tolerate it anymore which is... bad.

Sigh this is utterly rude and everything, tsktsk going against my principles of not criticising! Well I criticise, heh everyone does right :P, but I will say that I do it in really small amounts, and 80% of the time I hold it in :)

On a lighter (& happier!) note, I <3 my friends. I don't know what I'll be without them, and I'm just proud that I've made really good friends in the past 15 years! Like, even my parents and aunts say that I have 'good and guai friends' and 'I'll never be led astray' LOL.

I love how I can just be myself in front of my friends.

I love how I'm so used to doing silly things in front of them I don't feel embarassed anymore.

I love how when I'm so restless, tired, and stressed, they can sense it and they're always always always there for me.

I love how enlightened I feel when they teach me things I never understood before.

I love how when I'm so pissed and angsty, they tell me things so wise I can't believe they're the ones saying it, but I listen to it anyway and learn to forgive and forget.

I love how I can sing away and just be crazy with them, even if I'm the only crazy one at that point of time.

I love how we don't pass judgements.

I love how we tell each other off, sometimes get angry with each other, but never let those few bad moments ruin the friendship we took forever to build, together.

I love how we're so honest and true to ourselves when we hang out; no pretence involved, no awkward moments, random pauses but we're still comfortable with that :]

I love how we're always together, and I know that even if we split up at the end of the year, go to different schools/unis, be in different classes, and live our different dreams...

we'll still be best friends forever,

we'll still watch movies together,

we'll still laugh and act like kids,

we'll still have something up our sleeves,

we'll still have each other to depend on, no matter what ♥

be grateful.

2011-01-16T13:34:00.002+08:00

Last week we learnt new phrases/sentence from chinese lessons again, and this particular sentence really got me thinking.

It basically means, beauty is everywhere. If we can't see it, it doesn't mean beauty doesn't exist, it just means that we're lacking the ability to notice the beauty around us.

Well, I think that's true. I think it's quite sad how everyone is always complaining about how they don't have this, don't have that - and I'm not just talking about material goods, I'm talking about everything, including GPAs, cooler parents (haha?!), cooler friends,...

And of course I'm guilty of this as well, I'm constantly complaining :P

But honestly speaking, I think it's just stupid. Why bother comparing? I mean, everyone is different, you can't be living someone else's life.

And please for goodness sakes, be grateful for what you have already. Stop. Asking. For. More. Because once you start, you can't stop. You'll desire for greater, bigger things. At times I really can't stand it when people keep doing that. I mean there's nothing wrong but, can't they just be more sensitive? The fact that we're alive and kicking is a blessing in itself already. The fact that we have people to love, people who love us - it's God's gift to us.

Of course I'm not saying that everyone is lucky and blessed with good fortune yay the world is all nice and good, I'm the most fortunate being on earth - no. My point is that, no matter where you stand, just keep in mind that there are always those below you. Think of how much you have over them, not how much you don't have.

Be appreciative. Be thoughtful. Be grateful for all that's been given to you.

2010-12-28T23:22:00.002+08:00

Feeling very very terrible now.

First of all I'm so tired, I think I'm gonna crash any time soon.

Secondly, I am utterly disappointed at myself.

I'm starting to doubt my abilities. I'm so amazed at how I managed to screw all this up perfectly. I'm not trying to blame anyone here, just finding a place to rant... so bear with me...

I just want to make clear that I'm not superwoman. I don't believe in myself a whole lot, in fact I know my limitations and all. I admit that there was one point of time when I was constantly complaining, thinking: Why wouldn't they understand? Why is it that the expectations they have of me are so high?

But whenever I thought that way I tried to reason with myself, I said hey, everyone has their own commitments and matters to handle. I'm not the only one, so why should I complain?

Here I am now, feeling terribly bad about my own behavior and attitude, disappointed with my ability to handle such issues.

I'm too unbalanced. My priorities are jumbled up. I am unable to think through and manage my commitments so that it is balanced out.

And above all, I'm too tired. You see for this entire holidays, here's what I've been busy with. I'm just gonna list them out:

ICYL, PSLTC, Orientation CCAO I/C, Guides CCAO I/C, SPSB HR. My entire November and December's my peak period. I can very confidently say that the only actual holiday and rest I got was the period I was away in Malaysia for 5 days. That's 5 days in 2 months.

Please don't get me wrong here, I am not targetting anyone or attacking anyone. I am not trying to say that being in lead board is overwhelmingly stressful, it's a horrible thing, or complaining about being assigned these role - no, not at all. In fact, I am very grateful for people having such expectations of me because honestly speaking, I really don't think that well of myself, so I'm grateful that I'm given such opportunities (:

I'm very lucky to have all these opportunities, but I guess the downside of this is, this thing I'm experiencing right now, this instant.

I hope this will be a good learning experience for me to handle my commitments better, especially since school's starting in a week and to be really honest, I have no idea how I'm gonna survive through this new school term, and I'm so afraid I'll be burnt out. Oh well, I guess I'll just have to wish for the best ):

wish wash woosh

2010-12-09T18:54:00.002+08:00

Aloha world!
So hols have been great so far, finally got to the 'rest' part I guess (:
My days have been pretty boring, just lazing around at home, not going out, SLEEPING IN :D
And omg my mum just came home telling me that my friend has a girlfriend, and started stalking her using my fb account...okay weird lol! haha but anyways good luck with her man, have fun :P
A lot's been going through my mind the past few nights, some of 'em even years... I'm gonna just list them down lest I forget:

1. I woke up this morning and I had this really weird but cool idea: I wanna get a middle name!
I've actually thought about this before, like getting a middle name and stuff. I used to want to change my name because a lot of people have problem pronouncing it (I have no idea why, isn't it just 'bree-lee-yah/yer' ._.) okay you see, I don't even know if its supposed to end with a 'ya' or a 'yer' -.- But that's not it! I imagined people calling me by my first name in an office setting... that didn't work out very well. Basically I thought my name sounded really preschool-ish.
Next, I have no clue what my name meant. I've always wanted to have a name that, well, meant something special :) My name just had a random meaning to it - my mum said she wanted me to be brilliant, but that didn't sound like a name so she removed the 'nt'. hmm.
Anyhow after so many years I grew to like my name better than before, but I still want another name with a special meaning! Special as in, like, it means something in Latin or Portugese or idk somethinggg.

2. Vegetarian!
So yes, I have officially turned. Turned. Haha! Sounds as if I've 'turned' into a vampire or something :P
Anyway, this whole vegetarian thing started off because of my vegetarian friends! At first I just thought I was going to be veg because it's healthy and I wanna be kind to animals. Then I realised behind all these I was actually really, truly motivated because of the difference I'd make if I were a veg. Yup most of you probably don't know what I'm talking about so please do read up on global warming and livestock farming if you haven't already.
It's a personal choice and I'm all for making a difference! (:
Second reason: I made this pact with my aunt, we promised to go veg together :D

3. My future... *ding!*
Yeehaa! Okay save the best for the last! Okay I'm always so excited about the future because it's so unpredictable and stuff. I spend 1/3 of my time alive thinking of what I wanna do when I grow up... is that crazy? :/ But I like it! I enjoy doing that - planning out what I'm gonna do, where I'm gonna go, things like that. Sometimes it changes, in fact all the time, but it's always... somewhere around there...
Uhh yup maybe I shouldn't talk to much about this here it's a bit weird. But I'm so happy and jumpy everytime I think of this! It's so fun, the world out there is so so big I can't wait to explore the rest of it and I get so motivated to do well in school so I can get the scholarship I want and go to the university I want and take the course I want :D
...so that I can get the job I want! Which will never happen if I go to uni in singapore so that means I need a scholarship real bad. ):

Yes! gosh it feels so good to just be able to pen- or type everything, or at least most, of what is going through my head now :)

And it's eco-friendly!

you got me like I-C-Y, i'm so in Love

2010-11-26T22:33:00.002+08:00

Ack. this is so depressing.
I'm really not used to this whole post-ICYL thing. Gmails used to be flooded with nonsense and not-so-nonsense stuff, now it's just... kinda dead.

I can't believe we survived through this; I remember the days before Day 0, crystal clear - we were all bursting with excitement, nervous, feeling the jitters, wondering if we could actually make magic.
I can't believe we spent the past 9 months planning, camping in the SLAC, having comm meetings, for a 5 day convention that just whizzed past us like that.
I can't believe on Day 0 we stepped into YMCA receiving international delegates with bright smiles on our faces, and now we have to wave and hug them goodbye teary-eyed.
And now here we are.

ICYL is over, probably time to reflect on the things we did? Honestly speaking, I am very very very proud of OT. Even though we started off slow paced, ladeeduming around, it was really heartwarming to see everyone putting so much effort, bearing with sleepless nights almost every night, working together. I have never been in a greater OT.
The experience of being in ICYL OT has been a one-of-a-kind, amazing, inspiring, and wonderful one. I've gotten so much out of it, I think everytime OT gets together I feel this wave of power, that 'we can do anything and everything' feeling. I don't think I'll ever dare to sing madly in the canteen in front of random people, doing ab exercises, laugh like a lunatic, without ICYL OT. I'm so glad I got this opportunity to be in ICYL (:

And because we had such a strong bond and attachment, such a powerful and fearless OT, it's difficult to say goodbye, to admit that ICYL is over, we'll no longer have GMs, or gmail spams, or know-it-alls and survival kits, no more eating pizzas in the SLAC, no more stressing out when the teachers walk into the SLAC all stern-looking, no more carrying our phones around school anytime receiving phonecalls. ):

But I guess, we've made our mark, I'm proud to say we've done all we could and definitely inspired many others from all over the world/Asia. We Are Amazing.

LOGS!

I LOVE LOGS, all of you! Zara (Zorro/Tsar Nicholas Two), Desiree, Germ, Celine, Fang Da, and our dearest boob obsessed little junior Joanna Chue, who, ironically, depite being the youngest, is the tallest among us. And the lamest. And the sickest.
I'm so thankful I got to be part of such a crazy, annoying comm. We make a whole carton of annoying oranges. I believe we all felt the same way when we learnt about out comm allocations. It was like, uhh, logs, uhh- okayyy ._. who knew it'd turn out like this! we're saikang warriors rain or shine, day and night; we're forever on a Bumpy Ride; we're hyper to the max, we lack self-control esp when it comes to our mouth; we're crazy over cheers, pigeon/bird summoning, greenmen, fitness, abs, and getting rid of those flabs, but at the same time we're such pigs and we always eat the most in spite of our small comm size... I'm so comfortable around y'all because you're weird like me, I can do/say/feel anything and everything :D I probably never knew I was that crazy until we came together and you guys opened me up to my MAD side. I love how we're all so close and open and loud and bonded as a comm, I can safely say I have NEVER ever, in my entire life, been in such an awesome comm before. And honestly speaking, I don't think I'll ever be.

Sigh, all our ab exercises and saikang's running through my mind this very instant. I MISS YOU ALL ALREADY. We must... (omg, the song shit hahahha: we must, we must, increase our **** 8D) LOL I meant, we MUST have our ice-skating sessions, ab training, Veggie Thursday, SUSHI/ICE CREAM BUFFET :P

And now I am so tired because we only slept for like 2-3 hours last night. Thanks to some people *coughcough* for rolling around in bed and making SO much noise. And all the inappropriate touching :D

)':
I think, I better leave this before I start to tear because I can't control myself. I love you guys so much, I hope we can stay friends forever, we'll be one Logs comm forever. I've done so much with you guys, we're more than friends, we're family. <3

When I see your love
I hear your laughter
Flooding the skies
Sisters Forever
My hand to your heart
Here's where we will start
We will bring light to the world

When I see your love
I hear your laughter
Flooding the skies
Sisters Forever
Together we will
Look up at the skies
Be the stars that will shine
Oh, shine

I love ICYL OT'10.
I love my bestest comm over, Logs.

yeah man

2010-11-09T20:58:00.002+08:00

so today was the last day of school (not exactly for me but. yeah.) and it was, okay, quite fun/slack :)
though i had to lug my math and chinese file home cos i was too lazy to do so immediately after exams, not good :/
oh man i wonder if hols are gonna suck. i have this feeling i'll get bored but then again why would i when i already have so much work to doooo since spsb's starting work, icyl's nearing and i need to work on pianoooo.
OH WAIT
i think i know why. because i'm a lazy pig who doesn't like doing work! :D
aiya okay wrong attitude. need to start working asap!
okay out of boredom i'm gonna try listing out 30 things i did today since today's 9 Nov '10 and 9 + 11 + 10= 30! :D

1) i went to school
2) class party food was miserable. but i still ate a lot
3) i think i finished half of niki's apple crumble, oh no O:
4) i paid of my guides debts (:
5) i got worried about next year's PSB batch after talking to fellow PSLs ._.
6) i ran into cuiqin vanny joan and did embarassing things as usual
7) i banged my head in the bus which trying to prove i was tall -.-
8) i almost missed my stop again cos' i fell asleep D:
9) oh right i forgot! i played bridge and titi in school too.
10) the minute i came home i headed to the fridge
11) i felt like a pig
12) i watched desperate housewives for fun (and also cos there was nothing left to watch)
13) I FINALLY TRANSFERRED ALL MY FILES OVER TO MY NEW LAPPIE...
14) ...only to find out i had problems opening some of them
15) i got pissed, like reaaaalllly pissed at itunes cos it screwed up on me D<
16) i felt sad cos i found out the truth :'(
17) friend A cheered me up but the disappointment's still there...
18) i went to run! but i stopped at 5km because the guy running next to me didn't exactly smell very pleasant
19) i realised O levels were tmr. omg so fastttt.
20) i felt sian and found out i had to go to school everyday till sunday this week.
21) then i felt more sian
22) i jumped on my bed, bumped into the wall and landed flat on the floor
23) friend B told me about yet another hot angmoh guy she saw on the bussss 8)
24) i found out my life plan's kinda settled: i know what i wanna do in future, who i wanna be, and who i wanna marryyyyyy HAHA
25) i ate 3 slices of bread today
26) i decided to bid farewell to my blog tonight D:
27) and my my, i'm the photographer tmr o.o need to charge my cam!
28) cuiqin got her iphone 4 and me ish jealousshhhhh
29) i'm still talking to amelia on msn, i wonder why
30) ...and this marks the end of my blogpost :D

heart don't fail me now; courage don't desert me

2010-09-30T18:44:00.002+08:00

ahh so much for abstinence.
shouldn't even be online now but ): !!

today hasn't been a very productive day for me. yesterday too.
crap la my productivity rate is declining everyday and this is not a good sign because EYAs nearing!!! no wait actually it started today... but whatever.

I NEED TO BUCK UP. this is really it. it's like, the last lap (at least for this year) and i better not screw it up! i'm really giving it my all, i really hope the results wouldn't be disappointing.
not that i really care about the grades (no, i do) BUTBUTBUT point is, i really worked hard for this.
Please don't disappoint me, please ):

anyway i am currently drowning in a sea of chemical equations someone save me because CHEM IS KILLING ME.
goodness. whole year leh wts can die one la! D: and math is like. shit. UHHH.
and there's history (hugs claire and isdi) and lots and lots more.

SCREW THIS. so much for not-sleeping-too-late-and-waking-up-earlier-cos-it-helps-you-concentrate-better. if i can't finish whatever i to do, i'll stay up even if it means sleeping at 5am.

2010-09-07T22:57:00.002+08:00

okay. i am officially screwed up, not just for EYAs, for everything.
yay!
D:

AHHHHHHHHHH

okay i need to chill seriously
*breathes*

damn stressed ):

i love the way the mind works

2010-08-20T17:44:00.003+08:00

I realise something I always do. I'm fond of lying to myself, bubble wrapping myself.
So that I feel protected, so it seems like I don't know a lot of things, so that I can tell myself 'I don't care' and move on.
Maybe that's why after awhile I get kinda confused -- what is it that I'm really thinking? Am I really not affected by that thing, or is it just because my brain's telling myself not to?

It's really easy to tell yourself to look ahead and forget about what's done because after all, there's no use crying over spilt milk right? But the truth is, the harder you try to forget something, the more you find yourself thinking of it. So that never really works after all.

Today was pretty sucky because I flunked a certain paper really bad. Not because I didn't get the answers right, but because of a really dumb mistake I made: I drew this 8m table in pencil. Ya just because it was written in pencil, the content, etc. was okay. I was kinda pissed with myself because I mean, what a waste right!?

Then Des (and a lot of other concerned friends) came up to me and told me: It's okay la, at least you know you lost the marks because of the pencil thing, not because you didn't understand your work. I was like, well, yeah, I guess so!
But then 5 minutes later I looked at my paper again and told myself, shit, really not worth it, it's 8 frigging marks for god's sake! From a 4.0 to... i don't even know what grade. That's... way too expensive.

Before going to assembly Hengyeng gave me a hug and told me it'd be okay, I just have to work harder for my next test. While singing the school song, I suddenly realised

WHY the hell did I get so upset over 8m? It's just one paper, one subject. I have so much more bigger and more important things in my life I have to handle. I have my friends, my family, my hobbies, my cca, my interests, just to name a few.

I'm going to be just fine, I'm going to grow up to do big things and achieve so much more. At that time, I wouldn't even remember that I lost 8m in a certain paper.

So what's the point of all this? There's no way I'm going to let this weigh me down; I'm gonna free myself from all the guilt and self-blame, I'm gonna stop sulking and whining over something that's already a fact, I'm gonna treasure the past and the future and work towards it. There's a reason why so many variations of quotes like 失败乃成功之母 exist. I'm gonna learn from my mistake and hopefully I wouldn't repeat it again.

I got a letter from Christine, she wrote a thank you note to thank me for my letter to her during Striping. She wrote stuff and gave me a section of the lyrics from My Wish, Rascal Flatts. As I read it I thought, wow, it's true you know. I have so much more in my life I shouldn't even be bothered by such a small thing. I'm gonna live my life to the fullest.

STRIPING!
Last year's Striping was completely horrendous for me. Terrible. I spent 2 whole days crying cos I left Morning Glory, and it was so, so terrible ):

I think maybe that's why the night before Striping I was wondering how it'd be like this year.
This year, Striping was different. It seemed faster, and the atmosphere was different. I didn't really cry as much, not because I don't love my patrol, but because I understand now that no matter where our seniors go, they'll always be with us in spirit, giving us support and more. I'm prolly also used to the fact that every Striping, our seniors leave us, we might have new members in our patrols, small changes like that.
And also because b11atch is stepping up! It's... unbelievable.
I still remember how we were little sec 1s attempting to cheat during tests to pass our clauses, the in sec 2 we were just... really sucky at gadgets ._. and then this year in sec 3, it was awesome.
I looked back and I thought, hey actually we didn't really do much this year la, but the thing is that through (some planning) events like March Camp, April Camp, OH, AA, or AR for that matter, we grew and learnt so much more about each other (:
I'm so glad I got to know b11atch, be a part of b11atch, and I'm sure our awesome CLs (yinyu, jocie and weiyi! <3) style="color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">SUNFLOWERPOWER! Christine repeatedly assured us that in Sec 4, what would matter most (apart from batch i guess?) to us would be our patrols.
I hope I'll be able to do a good job, it's hard to match up with what Christine has done for us, but, I'll try my best!
Honestly I think I've grown a lot because of Sunflower 01. I joined the patrol only last year, feeling a little lost and I was actually quite afraid things will never be the same in Guides. But I've seen how our patrol has bonded over the year, March camp was great, really really good.
And I'm thankful I have such friendly and cute-sy juniors, they made it so much easier for me :D and of course Weiyi who's always ocassionally disappearing to do her QM stuffies xD
and Christine, who's so passionate, inspiring and even though she's small and skinny (severely underweight huh, tsk!), she has such a big heart!
Christine Weiyi Synth-di Vanessa (and our future sec ones), <3

HI THERE, THANK YOU ♥
I wanna thank everyone for being so kind to me (L)
I never really know when I annoy someone, I'm sure I did at some point of time! But no one's really expressed their discontent to me so I thank y'all for being so forgiving.
Hiding's not really my thing, usually my feelings are just reflected on my face. I thank y'all for always comforting me when I'm in a bad mood, and giving me hugs (which I love a lotttt!) and trying to make my life easier for me.
I can be rather blur at times, and I thank y'all for accepting me the way I am.
And I'm sorry if I ever made you worry bout me, I'll... do something about it ;)
I have so much to thank for. ILY, friends :D

free blocks are good for you

2010-08-04T22:54:00.002+08:00

ahhh today's been great.
actually, the past few days have been pretty awesome :)

english aa returneddddd :D
did pretty okay, marj and i can finally be at ease!

today's timetable = career ed + math + a shitload of nonsense/slacking. how awesome is that :D
no cca, free block for last lesson; reaching home at 1.20 feels greaaaaaat!
everything's moving rather slowly now. its like, all the pts just disappeared (oh wait theres still chinese pt, havent started, HECK.) no AAs, no PPAs.

i think my tablemates are just... weird! and funny!
our conversations somehow always revolves around (failed) diets, fats, and... that kinda thing! all of a sudden we started talking about faces today and marjorie, tsktsk, kindly rephrased my seemingly 'mean' comments (ooooo oxymoron!).
oh well we had a good laugh anyways!

i came home and took a loooooong time doing chem quizzes, simply because i was dozing off every 10 minutes + there was a lot of time to waste 8D
then i watched tv and completed my compre.
then i checked my email and it was spammed with no, not psb or icyl stuff, but 1/207 yg! ♥
i think its really heartwarming how we care so much for each other! hope dams get well soon, even if it means we can't visit her anymore... which is a good thing because that means she's discharged and well again!

SIGH, I WISH EVERYDAY WERE LIKE TODAY.
and omg i think its pretty cool how i typed that ^ at 11:11 sharp! and it was unintentional!

WHEEEE im reeaaalllyyy looking forward to the insanely long weekends (even though that means chiong-chinese-pt-plus-all-the-overdue-work-and-icyl-and-psb-stuffs)!
1 more day! :D:D

2010-08-01T00:16:00.000+08:00

i want to blog about AA but im damn tired.

♥♥♥

2010-07-25T12:21:00.008+08:00

some dreams are just worth fighting for (:

even though im so tired of life, there's always something/someone somewhere that motivates me to work towards my dream.
work's never-ending, since it's something i can't prevent, i'm gonna (try) to complete whatever i have on hand with a bigggg fatttt smileeee!
yes, that's it! im going to do my math summary SMILING ;D

ohoh and i found pictures from my project last year!

i love it when someone smiles, because it's so pure, innocent and genuine.

i've only got one life, one chance, and i'm gonna live it how i want to,
because some dreams are just worth fighting for.

you just ruined my freaking screwed up life even moreee,

2010-07-20T19:20:00.002+08:00

UGH im damn screwed up.
@#$%*&!!!!!!

i keep forgetting stuffs and my stm's getting worse.
i just missed piano 2 times in a row.
I HAVE DAMN A LOT OF VERYSUPERDUPERULTRAOVERDUE CHINESE HW ):
i spent the entire evening doing em.
first two days of the week, both were equally terrible.

i swear i slept through every class today. except forrs. and geog, because we got to use our phones.

oh and ss/cl pt presentation next week!? zomg. >(

uggghhhh i hate to say this but
WTS LIFE REALLY SUCKS TO THE CORE NAOOO :(

the best things in life come in small packages

2010-07-07T22:09:00.003+08:00

whee this blog is so dead again.
so is my brain haha. for a moment yesterday, i actually liked math.
i did it in the bus, i did it while walking home, i did it during dinner.
AND I DIDN'T EVEN TURN ON THE COMP (Y) heh so proud of myselffff!

haha had lunch with 306 people, and arathi. has. no. life. tsk. someone has to drag her out to far east/somewhere at least once every week. :)
then guides (elections) screwed up my speech, so unprepared but oh well. and i think b11atch is insanely awesome (:

SO. for now geog, ss, math, and history's over! chinese next but, heck ;P
thought i can finally get a good (short) break after SAs but NOOOO );
realised i had tons to do like ICYL stuff, CmPS... which is okayyy i guess just that i really really really feel like sleeping/doing nothing at all.
oh crap and then there's bio and chinese pt which is due next week and i havent touched it HAHA.
shit.
sigh.

nevermind there's always something to look forward to! like my first class on saturday (:
and partehhh on sat too! gonna stay till very very late to watch world cup with my dad mum sis and our family friends. HAHA hope it's gonna be fun, haven't met them in a long long time!

OKAY THATS IT I NEED TO BE ON TASK.
i will watch my chinese movie by this week.
i will do my bio write up and methodology by this week.

2010-06-20T11:51:00.002+08:00

omg i think this is cute :)

this is weird. 5 mins ago I had this overcoming burst of emotions and I was like 'bleh im going to blog',
but now i... don't know what to write.

i guess i've been too busy to notice the people around me, the changes, myself...
and by the time i finally come to that realization, it feels as if i've sunk into this dark hole.
and it feels t-e-r-r-i-b-l-e :/

i've been x.x for the past few days and that's really bad :(

AHHHH WHATEVER LA IDC ALR
this whole thing is pointless.
and im just going to move on, heck.

Being with you is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you, but I can't let you go
Oh yeah
cool i like this song :)

2010-06-17T23:20:00.003+08:00

psb chalet and today was damn fun!
i actually enjoyed the ball game ._. haha thats weird but, oh well!
frisbee on the other hand was, heh, quite fail! i didnt know how to play so i just stood there and stoned HAHA.
okay that was all i remembered. no la i'm just lazy to type hehe so yup!

nowwww i am supposed to email mr thio about caterers but my dear celine is not online and i lost the whole list of caterers we found the other time and my internet is so freaking SCREWED UP UGH :/

PLUS I'M SO DAMN TIRED WTS haha i feel super unfit la XD

today was a fairytale

2010-06-11T18:54:00.002+08:00

Today was a fairytale
You were the prince
I used to be a damsel in distress
You took me by the hand and you picked me up at six
Today was a fairytale

WOAH I LOVED TODAY TO BITS MAN :D

let's see why!
1. i started off today gleeking, awesome ;)
2. then i went to school to paint, we painted 3 candy houses, so much more productive than usual!
3. MIRACLE: i didnt stain my cullotes with paint! 8)
4. went to 313 and i saw pretty clothes and accessories!

OKAY HERE COMES THE HIGHLIGHT!
i saw the hottest living guy on earth in the mrt!
oh shit that doesnt sound like me at all but wtv he was damn cute la! even though he was pretty old, (late 20s?) ahhh ;D

HEHE so yeah basically i was super duper high after that!
YAY MADE MY DAY <3

okay i should stop talking nonsense now, shit i havent even prac piano yet :/

UGHHH

2010-06-09T00:23:00.002+08:00

OHMAN WTS the whole post (on gay outing) got deleted cos i came back to edit font size! DAMNDAMNDAMN, -.-

somewhere over the rainbow

2010-06-08T21:59:00.006+08:00

today is such a blog-worthy day!
wait, is 'blog-worthy' a word? or did i just create a new word! :DD
okay haha nehmind x)

PSB CIP!
omg damn exciting la! i was sort-of-pretty nervous becauseeeee
1. i had a terrible T-E-R-R-B-L-E night. it gave me the creeps and actually i'm still kinda freaked out by it x(
2. my buddy was late! okay no la but he was the last one to report :) so everyone else had their buddy and i was just like +.+ omgomgsoexcitedwheeeeeohwaitwhereisheO:

yup anw my buddy ALI was so super cute! he was kind of apprehensive at first, but he opened up alotalotALOT after that! in fact, a little TOO open but haha wtv la ;)
and we both love dogs! how cool is that :) haha after that he asked me for my number and my address woahh.

yeah a lot of things happened thereafter :OO but im too lazy to elaborate :P

okay so while i was chasing after ali (all of a sudden he decided to make a mad dash for idk what ._.) my blister sort of tore (again -.-) and then it just bled omg ouchhhh ><

GAY OUTING WITH EXCLASSMATES (this sounds wayyyy formal!)
whoohooo outing with amelia aka laulau! vanny, cuiqin, auntie CHIN, joan! ILY'ALL <3

finally in the mood to blog

2010-06-04T19:48:00.006+08:00

WHEEEE ;)

THERE. a big fat smiley to plaster that smile on your face :D :D

whoo i'd want these shoes!

I AM SUCH A PIG :(

went to tampines mall, century square and some other mall in tampines today!
sighh really really really wanted to watch a movie but... laulau didnt want to :/

so we ended up dwaddling and strolling about window shopping because we were too broke to buy anything +.+
(seeeeeeee told you we should've gone for a movie, at least we'll be occupied!)

haha anyway other than spending monehh on, heh, food :P
we bought couple rings! haha more like friendship rings la but whateverrrr haha
remember out 'engagement' rings! and how i was two-timing hengyeng ohmy O:
anyway someone had tuition, so we left after we got our ice cream/bubble tea :(
hmph. haha no la thanks a lot, really, for going out and keeping me company even at such a short notice :D

going home, circle line: EPICCCC zomg.
well apparently, platform a (was it?) had no train service O.O so we freaked out because the only alternative transport home was going back to where we came from, wait no actually further, all the way to dhoby ghaut then to bishan/serangoon. !?!!

so we decided, if that was the only way out, then fineeeee. after two stops...
-door opens-
me: eh... i think the train's back on service leh
lau: .___. nooo its not
me: i really think it is! *jumps out* oi come out!
lau: -.-
me: *jumps back in*
lau: OMG yeahh really got train leh!
-door closes-
me: -.-

2010-05-30T23:02:00.007+08:00

there are days when you're always happy, the simplest act of care and concern plasters a smile on your face.
you're grinning from ear to ear, but on the other side he/she doesn't know that his/her simple gesture made your day.

then there are those days when you're just feeling down, nothing seems right, every other thing pisses you off and you feel like you've hit the rock bottom.

what's heartening is that you know, somewhere out there, you have friends who actually care for you. Friends who do silly things with you,
Scream with you,
Laugh with you,
Dream with you.

Friends, who will always be there for you.
107'08, 207'09, 306'10, B11ATCH, PSB♥

But I can't spell it out for you,
No, it's never gonna be that simple,
No I can't spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other and we'll never find another,
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if we missed on each other now

chocolate is good for you!

2010-05-25T22:24:00.001+08:00

wheeeee~
okay for once i get to sleep before 12 :)

...?

2010-05-22T22:49:00.004+08:00

haha yesterday
...after oh prep started gossiping with nicole denise and someone else! haha then we started talking about teowensong havent seen him for ages!
...met justin in the bus so coincidental haha veryveryvery long time no see but glad to know that you're doing fine! but tsk some things never change, still as lame as ever la you
...i crashed my parents' romantic 20th anniversary dinner :) haha okay not really crashed la my mum invited me!?
anyway point is, i alt a lot cos i have no self control :P and im gonna get fat whoops haha but wtv since desiree chew is dragging me down for 2.4 training every week which is plain insane :/

OH guess what happened today :D (open house duh~)

okay open house was unexpectedly funnn

okay open house was unexpectedly funnnn :)
went to school at 7.20, there was no one there! and then it drizzled so we couldn't have outdoor cooking, so we cheated and used the hot water cooler water instead heh x) we made alotalotalot of food! there was cupcorn, roasted marshmallows, marshmallows with nutella, and peanut butter biscuits! yummmmmmm.

then after that i had my ambassador shift (tour guide) and i met my primary school teacher! so funny so i brought her around the school :D
OHOH and rosemarie, kana, val and i were going crazy cos we saw this super cute baby (he's a eurasian) and we started playing with him and he's so super cute zomg! :D then rose always blame me when he was about to cry but tsk rose! obviously its cos of you right thats why he cried haha, he likes me lor :)
and then i had psb shift and then i realised my shifts overlapped so i couldn't eat lunch but i still ate it anyway cos i saw des, marj and sonia eating :P
was late for my psb shift but there wasn't really much to do cos there wasn't much of a crowd! we ended up being gay and hugging each other and singing random songs and yeah basically, GAY.
ohhh yeah and mr chang's started talking to us about perfectionism and it was soooo funny!
haha i love psb <3>( ohoh and so funny she met this guy who was crushing on her during their uni days and started telling us about it and commenting on his white hair now haha!
haha so basically we dismantled our beautifullll structure and gadgets D:

we had cleanup, then mel, jocie and i had a damn hard time trying to get keerthana out of the guides room cos she was being OCD and insisted on sweeping the floor and we threatened to lock her in till wednesday heh.
after that i was waiting for my dad to come fetch me so we just stoned around and gosh suddenly felt very tired ):

hmm okay i went to J8 + library. amelia the toot pang-sehed me >;( so i was lonely and sad :(
yeah i finally found some stuff for history pt, but it was damn awkward cos like the books listed were in the junior (childrens) section and everyone was staring at me cos i was in my uniform ._.
but at least i got started right! :D:D:D i gave up on chem cos i seriously couldn't find any books related to household chemistry :( sighh google shall be my best friend for the next few days!

dinner! whee koi cafe is awesomeeeee i waited 15 min plus for my drink but heck its worth it! that was all i had for dinner D: but it was quite filling cos got a lot of pearls!! I LOVE KOI CAFEEEE :) even though its a bit overpriced (but worth every cent of it!) hmm then i read my sms and realised that GM4 was on monday (shit damn rushed) so i went to ntuc and started looking for household items! GM4's gonna be awesome cos HR Rotation2's planning birthday surprises! Okay but we really need to get down to work cos like haha yeah very rushed :O
and then in the bus i realised it was 8.45!? shit la i need to start on my PT!

AND LONG DISTANCE PHONE CALLS FTW! i miss you a lot! ): come visit soon!
hmm but today was like quite a good break for me even though it was really tiring! like the past few days i was really sleeping late and i practically died last night and like i was freaking stressed out and i wondered WHY IS MY LIFE LIKE THAT! everythings crammed up like wts!? i dont have time and energy to do all this! feel like giving up ):
yeah anyway i felt super shitty and stressed up and actually i'm starting to feel it again, now. ):

hokay i better get on with stuff i still need to do my history pt, chem pt, icyl poster, icyl vendor sourcing, gm 4 stuffs, tingxie, math ga, geog ws! thats damn a lot crap.

when the stars are gone, the night sky is gray

2010-05-14T23:30:00.003+08:00

okay i decided to plan out my time since all the PTs are crammed up together.

1) Eng AA
2) History PT
3) Chem PT
4) Eng/SS PT
5) Chinese PT

Others:

6) Math GA4 coming up.
7) A LOT of ICYL stuff coming up.
8) Open House next Sat.

My piano is dying, and if I'm gonna sit for my practical next year, i think i'd just fail. And I really hope Open House goes well next Saturday! IT BETTER OMG. Otherwise I will be... very very sad ); since we put so much effort in it!

:D tomorrow's gonna be a very very very busy day, because I have so so much to do.
From PSB to AR to piano to other more admin stuff I haven't settled in ages. I hope it'd be fun though! And I'm pretty sure I'll spend most of the time stoning since I'd probably only be half awake and partyyyy time in the morning = all my energy drained.
Last PSL session ): SO FAST! It's gonna be fun no doubt but, I can't believe it D:
I'm still thinking if I should go for AR dinner O: will it be weird or what. haha nehmind see how it goes :)

TILL THEN BLOG TILL THEN
I'll have another post, that is if I'm still alive.

blogger i missed you (not) :D

2010-05-07T22:10:00.003+08:00

haha oops sorry blog i pang-sehed you completely heh.
anyway i'm like dying now because idk how many gazillion PTs/AAs we received and I FEEL BAD );

on a side note, i didn't do anything tonight other than MSN-ning haha.
let's see... we talked about gossip girl (rgs series haha), history pt and how life sucks, and this retarded -insert ____- and -delete ____- thing zomg haha. oh how can i forget; OH <3

ANDAND. I was emo-ing today O.O
like for the first time in idk how long ._.
haha and somehow it was obvious? everyone started coming online and consoling me :)
love y'all!

I can't imagine how much I love 207 <3 or B11ATCH <3
awesomeness ;)

anyway, i'm happy now! hopefully it'd last till tmr O:

rain rain go away

2010-04-19T17:47:00.000+08:00

It's raining, again!

zzzz now I feel like going to sleep

eeeeeeeyer eng aa >(

2010-04-18T11:21:00.002+08:00

BLEHHH. shouldn't be blogging now but, since i'm here already... :D

Daddy's career-ed = sianzxsxsxs -.-

I have a dream, you know :DDDDD

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through reality
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness still another mile
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream

sigh, anyway, i shall get back to chionging eng aa, since my reflections are non-existent!! >:(

2010-04-13T21:54:00.001+08:00

I HATE THIS LIKE SERIOUSLY HATE IT.
I'M TOTALLY EXPLODING ALREADY. I CANNOT STAND IT!!!

OMG TODAY IS THE WORST DAY EVERRRR.

MATH D:

2010-04-13T20:18:00.001+08:00

MATH. I DON'T LIKE YOU AT ALL. >:(

DDDDDDDDDDD:

2010-04-13T17:51:00.002+08:00

omg i feel super down now ):

i just realised how mean i am! o.o i haven't really been hanging out with my primary school friends anymore...

because 207'09 was so bonded, and we were all so busy, AND we didn't even get our half-day for cny...

so i decided.

I AM GOING FOR THE NEXT 6I OUTING! :DDDDD

Be my valentine :D

2010-04-12T23:18:00.000+08:00

Love, it's a special day
We should celebrate and appreciate
That you and me found something pretty neat
And I know some say this day is arbitrary

But it's a good excuse to put our love to use
Baby, I know what to do
Baby, I will love you
I'll love you, I'll love you

Love, I don't need those things
I don't need no ring
I don't need anything
But you with me
'Cause in your company
I feel happy, oh so happy and complete

And it's a good excuse to put our love to use
Baby, I know what to do
Baby, I will love you
I'll love you, I'll love you

So won't you be my honey bee?
Giving me kisses all the time
Be mine, be my Valentine

So won't you be my honey bee?
Giving sweet kisses all the time
Be mine, be my Valentine

Valentine - Kina Grannis

:D

2010-04-11T03:56:00.001+08:00

3:56 AM

You don't go around bursting people's bubbles.

Forget about bursting mine :D

The night is still young.

2010-04-11T01:44:00.004+08:00

It's 3 plus in the morn.
woots :/

Haha I'm gonna get SERIOUS eyebags D:

Seriously, I'd rather stay up doing something I actually LIKE. Not reading up on homeostasis or studying cell structures ):

Crap this post is so emo, can't help it peeps, it's 3:25, what do you expect! :D

♥

What d'ya know, yellow ftw!

On a side note, TMR'S GONNA BE FUNNNNNN :DDDDDDD (even though it's such a waste of time! who cares (; )

Anyone noticed that I changed my MSN font color ;D that was lame haha.

2010-04-11T01:39:00.002+08:00

Everyone has a big dream, a childhood fantasy. Some dreams last longer than others.
I'm still dreaming :D

I don't think its unrealistic, it's not the typical 9-5 job, but I think it's unusual :D which is what I like about it!

I like to dream. Please don't ask me to snap out of it ;D

Until you were gone

2010-04-08T20:57:00.000+08:00

Damn, I wish I would’ve seen it coming
Cause I blink for a second and you caught me slipping, Oh, Oh, Oh
Now we’re done before we even started
Didn’t know how much I missed you
(Didn’t know how much I would miss you
I messed up the perfect picture)
Until You Were Gone, gone, gone
Until You Were Gone, gone, gone
Until You Were Gone, gone, gone
I didn’t know how much I missed you

:D

OMG.

2010-04-04T22:32:00.002+08:00

DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH I DETEST FLIES? DO YOU?!

grr.

WHEEE:D

2010-04-02T12:33:00.002+08:00

Hehe I decided to post after... a year?!

Blehs -.-
Anyway, my humble composition:3

~Let it go

What if the chances are outta a hundred percent?
What if your whisper held my hand?
What if your charity goes on unidentified?
What if I never learnt how to fly?

Your love for me
Was to never let me fall into the
Darkest of spheres
Oh~ but you can't deny that

Oh your whisper, your teachings, your shelter
Make me blind~
And your protection, your guidance, your rescue
Keep me tied~
So just let it go, let it go, let it go
So I can fly beyond the age of lies

Okay haha ^^
I need to explore! I need to learn!
Mom and dad, just throw me into hell and let me experience it :D I can do it, trust me :DDDDD

RANDOM HAHAHA WHATEVER! :D

2010-04-01T23:03:00.002+08:00

Revived. (?)
zomg sec 3 life -.-

):

2009-09-18T21:05:00.001+08:00

Its so hard to smile when deep down inside, your heart is breaking into a million pieces.

14th August sucked like shit.

2009-08-15T15:51:00.000+08:00

I'm not too good at saying goodbyes :/

<3 Morning Glory 1st Coy '08 to '09.

this blog is so, so dead.

2009-07-29T14:48:00.000+08:00

I WANT TO WATCH MURDERER AND FINAL DESTINATION!
but cuiqin doesn't want to...

goodbye holidays!

2009-06-28T18:34:00.002+08:00

Just 5 minutes ago, my ingenious sister decided to stuff the entire, or rather 2/3 of a banana into her mouth and chomp it up in one go.

"Do you believe I can stuff this whole thing [banana] into my mouth?"

I replied, "Your mouth so big, of course lah! But the banana a bit big...."

And she gladly attempted. Fruitless attempt it was.

Yeah, and we spent the whole time laughing really hard. Hard. And I mean HARD like, laughing so hard that your mouth is wide open and no sound comes out. I think those of you have heard me, or SEEN me do this before will get what I mean. Amelia Lau does that too (:

And she's the funniest + grossiest person I have EVER spent my life with. I mean, the whole yellow blob dropped out of her mouth and she still tried to 硬撑 and stuff it back into her mouth.

This foolish act went on for quite a while before another small blob plopped out.
Then again.
And again.
And again.

Yeah, after she forced it down her throat she came scaring me with her disgusting banana-ish hand.

Ugh, but that was fun!

Holidays are officially OVER.

OMG. Is there Chinese file check? Cos if there is Valerie just reminded me and I feel like I'm hanged but not dead yet.

2009-06-10T20:11:00.002+08:00

Man, something weird happened to me today. When I was walking to Junction 8 (yes, INTO the complex) after piano, this super 娘 guy walked up to me with some Mediacorp papers so I'm assuming he works in Mediacorp.

Yeah so anyways, he called out to me (not my name lah) and I didn't know he was calling me so I just walked in front, then he chased behind (leech. hehe;D) and he was like "Excuse me! Excuse me!". I finally stopped, but was darn blur so I just looked at him and stoned and repeatedly HUH-ed. He said,"Sorry what's your age?" HUH. "Just tell me what's your age." Err, okay... 14. He immediately turned off and said quickly (not forgetting very 娘ly) in like 2 seconds,"Oh okay nevermind thank you very much byebye!"
(...)
Age-ist. Sigh.
I never got to know what that was for, but when I turned around I saw him talking to another girl, probably 18 - 20+ years old or around there (she looked young). Oh well, do I really look that old? *weeps* (pst! I was wearing platforms then so I was *ahem* "elevated", so I am not old okay!)

absolutely heart♥ these 2 songs!
*muax*

Lots of overdued pics, oh well :}

& I know this seems insane, but apparantly I am "stuck" to BBF, sigh. Stuck, meaning like certain scenes in the show and the SONGS omg the songs are practically glued to my brain. Like gluedddd. Bleh why can't stuff glue to my brain like that when I'm mugging for exams. ):

Bleh I should go now. My Aunt is coming to Singapore tonight!

Plus, 100 paper roses are waiting for me to fold.

upturn the downturn ^^

2009-05-30T21:15:00.002+08:00

upturn the downturn, meaning: great ways to have fun without having to spend money!

Its been a fun holiday, well, so far. Let's begin with Friday.

School announced that Friday was a school holiday due to the event in Shangri-La. Hence, we had our Service Learning! I was late, missed that damn shuttle bus by 2 minutes, saw the bus moving further and further away from me and waved goodbye to my dear SL groupmates, before hopping onto a taxi I flagged in the middle of the road.

Shockingly, when I came, Sunshine & Scrappy were frigging chasing me. HAHA okay maybe not... but they RAN over at the very least. And they almost pounded on me and Ashley when we were on our way to the staff lounge... barked, growled, ran and sniffed us away... how scary is that, we just stood there, rooted to the ground and inched away ): guess Sunshine had her PMS that day.

MOODSWINGS, I call it.

Towards the end, we were playing and hugging each other, scratching and rubbing Scrappy's tummy (as usual haha) and with Sunshine too... they were more GUAI then hehe xD Then Sunshine walked around whereas Scrappy was feeling so shiok and kept turning his head over to me so I could scratch the other side of his neck... think what, free massage ah?! HAHA ;D so cuteeeeee.

So Ashley and Panyu left first, we stayed back a lil while, and realised how Sunshine loved our feets, particularly Felly's.

Then we headed for Lot 1 and had our lunch. Lol talked about how whose face belonged to what CCA. Kwek said I looked like Handbells... haha ;D Vivian said Choir xD What is it with music and my looks? Do I look like the music-y kind? Haha, too be honest with you other than some stinking piano grade and off-tune bathroom singing, I seriously don't think there's much musically talent in me. (:

Bought Loulou's present, BIG hole in my wallet (if you know what I mean) but I'm getting it mended when Joan, Val, Kana and I meet up. She ah... aiya don't know what to say... so fickle minded... haha.

Day 2 of holiday!

Treat from Prem: Escape Theme Park!

Firstly, we took this NOT SCARY AT ALL RIDE for a starter. Just to enjoy a breeze. Hey, we really needed that in that kind of weather okay!

Then we went to the Haunted House, didn't dare to look up, so I just hugged Leechin and plastered my face onto her back. I only looked up a few times when it wasn't really scary... saw this thing dropping down... I thought it was scary but I didn't scream when I saw it cos there was a metal net thingy so it couldn't possibly drop on me... so I was like gonna scream > saw the metal net thingy > felt cheated > -.-. And I couldn't help but LAUGH at LOU. OMG you know what she said to one of the person/ghost thingy holding the torchlight to "guide" us out of the way?!!

"Stop appearing lah, you spoiling our fun leh!"

Omg I tell you Lou is sooooo funny, I immediately looked up, saw the person and stuck out my tongue at him haha :P, well, guess he didn't see that.

We went to the some wet ride, which is like WHOOSH. Haha I sat with Cuiqin and she was squeaking away and telling me she wanted to jump out of the seat right away... haha xD Aiya not scary lah.

Then we ate lunch, went to play those carnival games so funnn! caught a balloon... according to lou me and cuiqin were TWO RETARDED LITTLE GIRLS JUMPING UP AND DOWN TO GET THE BALLOON.

Queued up for our LAST ride before I left for home: PIRATE SHIP is the LOVEEEEE.

So fun!!! This time I sat with Prem, Leechin and Lou who was in the front. Jolyn and Cuiqin sat in the middle... they were kinda scared I think. I was totally imagining Cuiqin puking and her puke flying right smack into my face. But of course it didn't happen. PHEW. And then Jolyn was funny, she was kinda scared but laughing at the same time and closing her eyes haha she looked so cuteeee! Raised our hands up high and Leechin and I almost flew out of our seats when the ship was almost vertical. My BUTT was off the seat... Luckily I didn't droppp. Louisa didn't want her money back (the one I borrowed from her for lunch) and she threw it on the floor, dumped it back at me, etc... sigh, don't worry I will stuff it in your bag secretly next time! :P

Aiya didn't take pictures because our bags were in the locker. So sad right ;(

Anyways, they continued playing while I went home to practise piano, sight reading actually had a nicer tune than my exam piece... guess I'm sick of my exam piece.
Blehh, I saw something in a magazine that I really wanna buy... that's 3 things I wanna buy, but I can only have 1.

First one costs $100 zomg right, second one is $25, third one is $30+ cant really rmb the price.

Sigh, why wouldn't money drop from the sky.

2009-05-19T19:23:00.002+08:00

Finally... the 2.4km run is OVER (((:

HAPPINESS♥

I felt rather depressed at my timing though... wasn't what I expected, really, and what else can I blame for my lousy timing other than NATURE'S CALL. Hey,after all, it's not something I can really control right... I believe a few of us experienced this... Its hard to run faster, let alone sprint, when your bladder is on the verge of bursting okay?!

Lesson learnt... shall not drink too much water before 2.4, and must train more... damn I'm losing it! My stamina is like, zero. Shan't continue harping about this... at least I didn't fail lah xD

Those who didn't do that well, I'm really, really sorry and I hope you'll do better in your retake/next year! Don't be too sad okay, you can do it! *muax* ;D

Moving on to life... blehh I really really really WANT TO START SL!!! I dream of the animals all day long... please fulfill my little wish (:

Bye!

(P.S. check out my new blog here!)
momopopp.xanga.com

happey!

2009-05-18T15:50:00.001+08:00

today is a very very very happy day!
Nola the uber cute and friendly puppy came to visit us in school! And we took a photo with her! And I carried her! She's so warm and tiny! zomg~! I LOVE TODAY!!! :))))))))! ^^!

I AM SOOOO HAPPY!

but i came home and crushed my poster by accident... sad... nvm! I LOVE YOU NOLA!

belated birthday & mothers' day

2009-05-17T13:53:00.004+08:00

I had such a fun time preparing for the belated mothers' day and my sister's belated birthday celebration/present! Woke up, and went shopping for gifts. I looked forward so much for having a happy celebration after the exams!

But then, when the real thing came, I was so disappointed.

I came back with some Ginseng tonic and 2 facial packs specially my mom, then I ordered a Chocolate Mousse Cake for my mommy and my sis.

When I came home, I quickly packed everything into a box, place the candles on the cake (but I didn't light it cos' I was scared... haha) and ate my chicken rice while waiting from my mommy to come back.

She was taken aback and rather happy, and I was really happy too! We were actually planning to have a lunch out but because we met some problems with the planning of time, etc, so we called it off, and my mom and sis were really sad. My sis cried ):

So I bought a cake! I thought everyone would be happy, but then, UGH, my sis just like HECK about the cake and didn't even bother... I don't even know why she treats me like asdfghjkl!!! I am so disappointed with her... she didn't even bother or say thank you or even... ?!!! What the hell is wrong with her?!!!

然后搞到很没有气氛。。。我真得很。。。很。。。伤心！生气！无奈！失望！讨厌！To think I spent so much money and effort on this... SUCH A DISAPPOINTMENT! I really wanted today to be a very very happy day! But it always have to turn out like this... all because of one person!

I was so sad I tore up the card I wrote for her, and all the wishes... GONE. I'm not going to do so much for her anymore! What was I thinking? I can't believe I put myself through all this! >
And when my mommy told her off, she was like, didn't really bother, wasn't really listening, didn't care... WHY IS SHE LIKE THAT?!!! I just wanted to make her happy because she was look so depressed over yesterday's decision. Now... she doesn't feel a thing, but its my turn to feel depressed! I always felt that she cared more about my friends than me... now this has proved that, 她跟就不把我当成一回事，不把我放在心里！为什么？！！她每次都这样!

THIS IS NOT WHAT I EXPECTED AT ALL! 我现在感到很空虚！不知所措！我真的是太太太太太失望，失望透了！

when.

2009-05-12T21:04:00.001+08:00

& then, I shall screw my history, chem and lit. (omg.)

& then I shall screw my oral.

& then I shall do something about my tooty hair.

& then I shall be broke.

& then I shall change my blogskin soon.

& then I shall leave this post as it is.

& then I shall be leaving now.

& then I shall discontinue this irritating post.

& then I shall end here.

& so I will.

2009-05-11T13:43:00.002+08:00

why must i study so hard
why must i stop facebooking
why must i stop going out
why must i?!!!

arghh when can i stop mugging.

sigh. not exactly the way i wanted it to turn out.

I know.

2009-04-20T20:27:00.003+08:00

I know I shouldn't be blogging right now, but I will anyway.

Premikha, you have unknowingly become one of my role model in a certain aspect!

I learnt from you what it means to relax.
I learnt what it means to work hard, but at a certain point of time, even though work is not done, play hard.
I learnt that there is nothing wrong being a happy-go-lucky person.
I learnt to standby the laptop for a moment even as little as 5 minutes, to take a break and appreciate the people around me, my mom, my dad, and even my sister, even if it means having to face this dull screen once again.

Thank you for letting me understand what life in RGS is all about.
That it is not just about work; neither is it just about fun and games; but it is the way we accept the way things are and not to stay in the shadows of the past, but to move on and pursue a brighter future.

Now, I take things in my stride. Its okay to fail, its human to err. Nevermind about all that, accept everything that comes to you, good or bad, with grace and a smile across your face.
Don't compare, what is the purpose in doing so? Comparing oneself with stronger opponents, who are major stress initiators, is not worth it. Be self motivated. Push yourself, don't let others push you.

This post is dedicated to you, my dear friend.
Nevertheless, my dedication to you is ceaseless.

ORAAA (:

2009-04-18T18:05:00.002+08:00

What do you know?

I'm pretty scared of birds.
To be precise, birds when they are shitting.

And no, I am not going to get my shirt stained with bird pooping anymoreee.

ORA was okay, sold Guides cookies, bought a badge, wanted to go for face painting but didn't want to queue plus Panyu wasn't there. Walked to Junction 8 with Valerie, Prem, Yingjiao and Ashley, when this irritating bird *ahem* on me, then had lunch with my parents (love them!) and then... came home and sleeep.

And Cuiqin ah, stop thinking that I'm doing Geog PT lah; COS I'M NOT.

&

Harper's Island! Oh, you know you want to watch it! :3

busy.

2009-04-12T11:35:00.002+08:00

忙,
مشغولة,
πολυάσχολος,
occupé,
忙しいです,
바쁜!

busy.

trauma.

2009-04-06T16:07:00.002+08:00

Upon receiving my Geography T1 SA Paper, I spent 15 minutes in the bus, reflecting.
From 6/4/09, 16:17, I am:

Not going to watch any dramas
Not going to watch more than 1 1/2 hour of television a day
Not sleeping any later than 11.45
Not answering more than 4 calls a day (unless necessary, e.g. project discussion)
And not exceeding the time limit of 8 minutes (set by me!)
Sitting in the front row (or 2nd row) no matter what
Attending more History, Geog and Lit CES
Not logging on to Facebook more than once a week
Not blogging more than once a week
Not replying anyone on MSN when my status is set BUSY or AWAY or OFFLINE (unless, of course, necessary)
Saving my Sundays for last minute homework/revision
Definitely going to pay more attention in class and jot down more notes
Going to constantly remind my mom to nag at me more often
Getting more buddy tuition mates to revise with me/teach me stuff that I'm super blur about
Not going to hesitate when I have something to ask the teacher

I'll really really try my best.

Tchaikovsky

2009-04-04T21:11:00.001+08:00

Tchaikovsky; my favourite composer.
Incomparable.

2009-04-01T22:41:00.001+08:00

shoot you impossible quiz. 89 questions x(

randomness

2009-03-25T19:06:00.003+08:00

Sad to say, I'm having a bad hair day D:
But the good thing is that my addiction for drama's aren't THAT strong anymore!

我一路走一直走一直走
不想回头
我向前看一直看一直看
不再清楚

你说恨痛的滋味我不想尝试
未来多漆黑的路我陪你度过
我仰着脸忍着泪
乖乖点头

Lyrics! For a tune I just thought of while in the bath. :3
Its in chinese because I thought the tune was kinda chinese-y, but as you can see, its not complete ;D

Axemanship, sawing and chopping, today's activities were fun! Wish I could say the same for studies.
Actually, studies are quite fun, say, if it were less stressful? Like math. I ♥ MATH. I like it.

i found something new!

2009-03-23T22:23:00.001+08:00

I FOUND A NEW SITE!
better than mysoju.com ;D but its only taiwan dramas, no korean/jap dramas...
&!

Nonetheless!
http://tw.sugoideas.com/

I hate myself for always being addicted to dramas.

starlitttt ♥

2009-03-21T00:25:00.003+08:00

STRESSEDDD.
starlit is so nice ♥
why they only upload until episode 16!?!!!
:3

2009-03-19T11:27:00.003+08:00

Dead. This blog is so dead.
Nevermind that...

More reviews! I probably should stop watching dramas, ONCE AND FOR ALL!

Starlit

It is a rather heavy drama, and yep, here's the plot if any of you wanna know:

Cheng Yue and Rui Shan are pianist and cellist. They are the most high-profile golden couple in the music industry. One day, Cheng Yue tried to save Xiao Lu from car accident. But unfortunately he break his arm and can't play piano. Devastated Cheng Yue give up music and chose to travel. 2 years later, Cheng Yue arrives in Shanghai, and meet Xiao Lu. The 2 become colleagues, and due to work interactions, they gradually establish a friendship. At this time, Rui Shan finally tracks down Cheng Yue. She tries her hardest to get Cheng Yue to return to the music world. However, Xiao Lu encourages him to face life with a postive attitude, and Cheng Yue realises that he is impacted by Xiao Lu’s kidness and enthusiasm. From being a person who has hit rock-bottom, wallowing in self-pity, he has re-ignited the passion in life.

Cheng Yue falls in love with Xiao Lu, but he is rejected by her, why? Is their love fated to be a tragedy? Although they are not blessed, although they do not have a future, Cheng Yue still bravely loves Xiao Lu...

Yeah she, err, Xiao Lu, suffers from muscular dystrophy (is that how you spell it?!).

This is like another version of a 1 Litre of tears! Not really but, yeah I like these kind of shows.

OMG and _____ rs is killing me.

KUKUP!

2009-03-09T23:10:00.001+08:00

kukup trip was so fun! i love going overseas!
but im kinda tired ):
i love long bus trips too! its so fun when we sit down and talk and laugh and we are finally living! And sing, dear amelia, my dear singing partner!
i shall return to vivian and kana when we get back, oh, oops, i forgot we are changing seats!
D: THAT MEANS WE CAN'T SING!!!! >.<

my horrible encounter with HISTORY :/

2009-02-25T18:23:00.000+08:00

CRAP I need more space for Chem PT.

2009-02-17T18:45:00.002+08:00

WHEE ;D
I'm back, and Vivian influenced me into listening to Teardrops on My Guitar so that I get the lyrics.
So we can sing together ;)

While I was in YouTube checking out videos, i found something!

Yeah its called the Zoovolution Project and I think its really meaningful!

Exams are drawing near and I'm jianbao-ing. Don't really know how this helps us anyway.
I couldn't believe the comments Ms Mathew gave on our Lit "FA" cause it was quite an impromptu test for me and I was freaking out since my lit sucks. Its not a bad thing, but it feels weird.

Yep so today I corrected some lyrics in my song and fixed the tune! This is my second song of the year!
I'm obsessed with composing original songs recently, its insane. Even though it sucks and I don't usually do this kind of 'lovey dovey stuff' but that's the SONG not ME. HAHA xD is there a difference, yes there is.

okie, toodles!

2009-02-04T21:49:00.002+08:00

WOW.
Just realised I haven't been posting in 1 month! (Sorry, Xinyi!)

I've probably been really, really busy lately. So busy I didn't even know I'm busy.
Ok, maybe not THAT busy.

I'm really happy GA's over! I should not and can't say more.
Anyways, I'm kinda sad I didn't get to go back to NYP during chinese new year... aww so sad.

Well, my brain is kinda frozen now and I'm trying my best to decipher what on earth this chinese compre is about. So I'll post soon! Oh and I'm going for some party on Sunday (really excited about it) so I'll probably be posting photos! Yay!

And yay my dearest mortal <3

2009-01-09T18:00:00.002+08:00

HOME ECONS! Is my favourite now.
Still can't come to terms with the fact that we wasted our first lesson on making SANDWICHES. I mean, who doesn't know how to do that? Mash the eggs, dump it into the bread, cut the bread, done. I'm looking forward to the next lesson though.
And I loveee my kitchen partner, haha we are like so great together, and she lets me do the things I like! Yay, and I let her do the things she likes too, we are like so accommodating.
Waited 15 minutes for Natasha and she tells me she's going home! Gah, I wanted to paint ok):

Being Sec 2's funother than the extra burden. I used to think that I'll get really jealous of the Sec 1s but I'm not; maybe because we don't really see them. Hope I'll get nice juniors in Guides!(:
CmPS, FPSP Booklet, RS. I really do wish I can get into either FPS or CmPS! For RS, I went to Inet to check for the book thing, I THINK its Student Handbook but I don't even know which one it is. And I shortlisted a few plausible research topics: Children living in Poverty, orphans, and the welfare of stray and abandoned dogs. Just some thoughts, though.

Sigh, feeling really tired right now. Wonder if I can last through the year of RS, ACP and if, I get selected into FPS or CmPS, another extra and there's also RA which I will never get in. Once, I thought of just trying out for Geog RA but after listening to all my sister's rants and so on, arghhh.

I don't know, maybe I'll just rot away in some deep corner of the world will people start fussing over RAs and so on.

2008-12-31T11:29:00.002+08:00

New Year's Eve.

CCAO was yesterday. It was fun! And the best part was... hmm... lets see:

2009 Sec 2 girls class allocation
There will be NO reshuffling of classes for year 2009. 2008 sec 1 girls will be promoted to sec two within your same class.

Whee! I'm SOOOOO happy! I just kept jumping and jumping when I heard about this!
Maybe they were just lazy so they didn't reshuffle, but still, thanks!

So, holidays are oficially ending! That's bad. A few things I thought I should have done/regretted:

1. of course, not being able to visit Mochie cos' of some stupid illness my dad passed on to the family

2. wasting so much of my time on Youtube

3. creating 8 different Youtube accounts because I couldn't make up my mind on what username I wanted

I guess there were so much more.

Anyways, went to watch Australia yesterday night. It was a 3-hour show and it turned out to be full of depth and reason in it. Couldn't really understand it at first but it got better. About the sale of cattle and land, the fight for love and authority, and the search for equality and reason in life.
My next target is probably to watch The Day The Earth Stood Still. I've been wanting to watch it forever.

Planning to wander off to Jurong Point, though not confirmed. Who knows the plan might fall through again.

realisation

2008-12-26T11:33:00.002+08:00

Hey.

So... Christmas is over. I was just watching random videos on Youtube (again) and then I saw some great christmas gifts those Americans (etc, etc etc.) got! Bahh, and I got nothing. Suddenly felt that tinge of jealousy. It has been my dream forever to celebrate Christmas like New Year. Don't get mixed up! What I mean is, have a prodigious celebration (like what the Caucasians do).

I got up real early today *11am* that's definitely not late for some of you but this holiday I have been sleeping till 1 or 2pm! Haha. I suddenly felt that I wanted to grow up. I wanted to have my own job, I wanted to have my own car, my own house. I wanted to go to University in UK, and I wanted to be past 18 years old. I still have, err, 5+ years to go?! )):

Yup I think that's all. Bye guys!

2008-12-25T13:13:00.000+08:00

Hohoho!
Wishing everyone Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

the super review

2008-12-22T14:31:00.005+08:00

Fated To Love You

taken from: http://www.mysoju.com/fated-to-love-you/

So, I spent about 1 week or so to finish this Taiwanese drama! its nice... I give it 4 stars! And the songs are cute too. I haven't really been watching Taiwanese dramas for a long long long time... sighs. The story revolves around a girl named Xin Yi, who is, overall a very simple and normal girl and a guy named Cun Xi, who is some super rich ($$$) guy. And I shall not reveal anymore because its kinda sensitive... *ahem*. Just watch it lah! haha. You can view it at mysoju.com and some parts are really funny like Xin Yi's mother and this guy called Anson. Hehe.

Rating: **** (4 stars!)

Twilight

Some time of the holiday, Cuiqin, Leechin, Rebekah and I went to watch Twilight! It was fine, so I'll give it, uh, 3 stars? I lost my ticket like just before the movie started! Can't believe myself. So I bought another ticket and blahblahblah wasted $6! Grrr.

Rating: ***

Spirited Away

ZOMG! I finally finally FINALLY bought my Spirited Away DVD! So happy... This is like my favourite of my Studio Ghibili collection of DVDs. Just love SG's wonderful collection!

Rating: ***** (5 stars!)

back to singapore

2008-12-13T23:26:00.002+08:00

Okay, I'm really tired and lazy now so, I'm just gonna say I'm back to Singapore and rushing away all my dramas! HAHA. I can't believe I bought so many clothes and stuff and spent so much money. 8D

my short & sweet holiday

2008-12-06T01:09:00.002+08:00

Hey guys!
I'm in Malaysia (KL) now, in my 3rd Aunt's house.
Just came to relax and, I don't know!

I'm just in love with my blog now. Ahh... (hugs teddy bear)
Ok this is nonsense. I shall post something more sensible when I get back.
toodles, ♥

true friendship

2008-12-01T23:25:00.003+08:00

Hey guys, so today I found a great video. Its really touching, and I loved it so damn much.
Here's the video:

Isn't it so loving! Its great to have true friendship, and with it, comes everlasting happiness.

a new week

2008-12-01T17:27:00.002+08:00

another week has past. 1st December, yet another week.
i'm starting to think of all the time i've wasted this holidays, playing pet society, watching dramas, shopping, sleeping till 2pm. And before I knew it, came the month of December.
Anyway, I decided to create a new Youtube account. Its bizarre when I create one and don't even post any videos! But I think its weirder if any of my friends, family or even teachers come across a video of me, it will be so embarassing.
I have also noticed that Rebekah Lee is busy revising for next year, which really freaks me out. And I also observed that CQ on the other hand, is busy playing and getting infuriated by her sister's thoughtless act - 'hogging on the computer'.

Yesterday, I was bloghopping, and so many people posted on 30 November, wonder why. At 9pm, I thought to myself: okay, I cleared my desk, organised my book cabinet, visited all my friends in Pet Society, went to other webpages like Youtube, etc, sent out all (or at least most) of my 'relink please!' thingy, had a game of badminton, took a nice warm shower...

Now what.

Its amazing how life sometimes can seem so meaningless. Its like, why do I go to school, why do I study, why do I want to buy that bag so much, why is money so important, why do I expect so much from myself? At the end, all you have of yourself is a cold, wrinkled corpse lying in your $__ coffin. That's what you get for slogging your guts out the past 70 years. And if you're lucky, 80? Please, the Prime Minister won't even be there when your remains are heaved into a sea of flames.
But anyway, just live your life to the fullest! That's what keep the smiles on people's face alive and burning.

I'll probably just end with a quote, something a lot of people do before they click "PUBLISH POST".

"If you do not hope, you will not find what is beyond your hopes."
St. Clement of Alexandra

2008-11-30T01:17:00.002+08:00

its really late now, but i made a few "discoveries" today.

yingjiao watches 1 litre of tears too!
my great aunt's inviting me to her house to 'babysit' her granddaughters the twins, which is great!
i'm going to see mochie soon! (wait, thats quite long ago)
my uncle's neighbour has a husky which was adopted from SPCA, and it loves babies too!
valerie went to the airport too and i saw her!

<333

2008-11-12T10:31:00.002+08:00

omg.
CLASS CHALET!
107 makes the world go round!

its like sooo fun. that i forgot to take any pictures.

so the first day we went cycling and then we had bbq! it was quite a success, since the food turned out really well. we had stuff like chicken wings, otah, stingray!, satay, fried rice, potatoes which we didn't cook, and so on. so it was like damn fun! then we me, jolyn, julia, huiwen, yj the pro haha, cuiqin, ashley went to the public toilet to bathe. before that we went to cheers.

the night was horrible. but it was fun! it was like 11 ppl squashed and i really mean SQUASHED into 2 beds. can you believe that! and we were freaking ourselves out with some weird flashes and sounds. in the end at 3 or 4 (oh fou!) am they went down to play titi and eat.

OH YEAH AND WE MADE THOSE DAMN FUNNY PRANK CALLS. HAHA! pizza hut, pet lover's centre, harvard and NUS scholarships for free!

day 2, we were slackeyyy. cuiqin ashley and me went out to eat waffles, then amelia and leechin came, and we played games like monopoly, titi, taboo!, and then they were trying to teach us bridge in which amelia picked up REAL fast. anyways, while we were doing so, leechin was buring herself in (books :P no lah...) PSP GAMES >< haha and then :// you all left soon. but before that we managed to have lunch! and i was the stupid china asshole. shoots. anyway i ate mango sago, the icy kind and pineapple for lunch. whoosh.

anyways, valerie, cuiqin, and me went all the way out to rent bikes again. so we cycled and scared ourselves with waves and high tide! and then more ppl left.

then me, val, cq and germaine walked to e!hub to eat and we watched Quantum of Solace 007. and then there were some stranger kids talking to us. whoops. that was kinda awkward.
and we had the whole bed to ourselves!

the next day, we PLANNED to wake up at 6 but in the end we woke up at 8. germaine grabbed her bag and left for dance and she left most of her stuff in the chalet, so we took it home for you! we had leftover mango pudding for breakfast, and mini oreo wafer. we were PACKING.

then my dad came. i hope you all left early! sorry ><

so, that's for the really fun days. and i missed guides.

to end, i shall start emo-ing.

i love 107. weeps.

ok that was a really bad sad ending.

i'm going to watch the family guy thing! wheeps!
(that's better.)

chalet!

2008-11-06T14:37:00.003+08:00

i am so excited. chalet!

current mood:

song:
Hot N Cold by Katy Perry

i love 107

2008-11-04T21:30:00.002+08:00

107 rocks like hell.
last day of school ):
I LOVE 107!
this is like the worst day ever ):
so emo.

P.S. will post the farewell photos by... tmr? hehe.

weep, sob, and cry.

13th anniversary

2008-10-30T22:24:00.011+08:00

whee ;D
its my birthday today! and i'm very happy cos so many people wished me happy birthday!
YAY I LOVE YOU GUYS SO SO MUCH! ><
so... PHOTOS. i was trying to fix this into digital scrapbook but its taking so long! ahhh!
ok so i'll just make do with this.

first up was the mushroom soup! it went like, gone very soon.

next was my main course: the chicken. haha i ate like chicken for lunch and dinner! i feel so chicken-ish! i didn't finish it, and 40% of it was fats, anyway. blehhh XD

my mom's is the same as mine, my dad got pork, and my sister got this beef that was medium but it was really, really rawwww.

yeah, that's the beef one.

oh the cream bru... something! i dont know how to spell!

OOPS :D actually there was something before the soup, it was the bread!

yup, so... the overall of the restaurant, well, not really...

HAHAHA that was pretty lame.

yup here's my favourite part: strawberry cake! small small one only...

yay! i thought it was quite cute :D

2008-10-25T18:53:00.000+08:00

drama night ;D

its fun, its cool, it rocks!

yeah, weep.

2008-10-16T15:03:00.002+08:00

the horrible truth daunted on me, that life isn't so fair at times.
and so i felt fresh tears flow down my cheeks, again.

i think it has something to do with something we learnt about light or colour in physics.
maybe not. its like you put on a lot of make-up, and you are suppose to be pretty.
but you look back in the mirror and see nothing but an ugly doll with excessive make-up, bursting cheeks, horror lips, and so on. you look like a three-year-old has just doodled all over your face with their new crayon.

its amazing how healthy people in developed countries are proven, well, not so healthy after all, and those experiencing malnutrition in the developing countries are seriously, erm, yeah. its like there's this uneven baby distribution thing, yup.
a few days ago i was like. arghhh. nooo! not again. and then i was talking to my mom about this gene i inherited from, i think my aunt - OVERLY EMOTIONAL. its either crazy laughter, fiery temper or the darn frigging crying. happens that all these can happen multiple times in one day. *whoo*

and when you are done reading this, you can take a look at this!

i want to run away.

2008-10-16T14:07:00.002+08:00

today is like frigging ______.

physics is lousy, but after a while i thought it was better, cause... yeah.
history is as usual, and my as usual is like, lousy ok. yeah you should know how lousy my history is.
chinese paper 1 and 2 is such a FAILURE. i am sooo disappointed at myself, esp. paper 1.

i decided that i have seriously not mugged enough. and i was fine with it, i thought, when EOYs ended, but now this spooky feeling is back haunting me again. arghhh i should have known the better and not like have so high aspirations on myself (haha what rubbish business woman), instead some other occupations that, ahem, no need to have so big brains. maybe cleaner or something. blehh.

the thing is i happen to, NEVER CRY, about my results, err, in school! i'll most probably be emo for a while, then i will start talking and smiling and laughing and i'm grateful of that. so i won't be like... yeah. i don't really like people to "an wei" me actually, makes me feel like i'm really lousy or something. but when i need it, i need it ;D

i decided ALSO, i should start making some changes, for example:

start mugging for MYAs or EYAs at least 2 months before the actual thing.
start or do my PT like, fast, esp when i have the privilege of having holidays in between.
ahem. stop sleeping late.
but on one condition, that is wake up earlier... , err, i'm not sure if i can do that though!
for holidays, continue the "primary sch" thing mommy did: wake up earlier, mug till 12pm, go bathe, eat and then playyy, then mug from 5-7pm again.
start buying assessment books at dec holiday, not june -.- and start doing a little bit of each subject the year before.
come home from school as soon as possible and not stay back for nothing.

dream on, i don't think i can accomplish all these.
ahh no i shouldn't be saying this kind of things. ICANDOIT! haha :)

i decided that i LOVE my friends so much, whether human or non-human.
thanks for all you did, consoling me when i'm down, purposely missing all your buses so that you can take the same bus 132 as me, hugging me, or even getting angry with me! i'm really fine with the angry part haha.
as for non-human friends, thanks for "being aware" that i had a horrible day and oincidentally meeting me at the lobby and walking to me to give me a warm hug. thanks for letting me hug and kiss and pet you. thanks for stepping all over my bag and leaving a whole chunk of fur on it.

thanks for being my friends, all of you.

my dreamy day.

2008-10-15T22:13:00.001+08:00

and this is what happens when you fall in love with the same blogskin as rebekah.

2008-10-15T15:32:00.000+08:00

whee ;D
omg on monday i don't know what BABY and "FUNNY" things i did with cuiqin and louisa. ahhh.

and today!
went to plaza sing with amelia, vannesa, kayal and jialeeeeee. ate wasabi fries again...

bee 2 more bee hours and bee my sister is gonna bee flying to melbourne. and haha what a funny love life game.
but uh-uh, my lips are sealed, whether i have or not. - er, that's actually a NO, blehh.

UH-HUH! i just updated. HEAR/SEE THAT?!!

can i just utter nonsense because i have a bad feeling i will not be able to do that once the clock strikes 12 midnight.

blablabla ;D

good luck xinyi for your grade 8 piano exam!!! i love you! go girl!

good stuff take a long time to come.

2008-10-12T17:05:00.000+08:00

its officially OVER. yeah baby, its overrr.

ok, i'm kinda sure i failed. Maths was ok, all thanks to the instructions. NVM i shan't talk abt it.

So after the exams, lee chin, cuiqin, rebekah and vanessa (and me!) we went to Bugis Junction. And that Amelia!!! She abandoned us... so sad right...
we ate Mos burger. spent quite a long time deciding on where to eat and it was so early! like 10 or 11... wow but we had a movie at 12.30 so...
and cuiqin was like so happy cause she was gonna get her card stamped if all of use ate in Mos burger. as in SET MEAL. and then in the end everybody only got the burger! me too! so she had to buy a set herself and i shared it with her...
aww... don't be sad. at least you got ONE chop.
ok we went to watch the House Bunny. (i just realised on the ticket its PG-sexual references) And we went window shopping, chocolate shopping, Famous Amos eating (me, cq and beckah), JCO donuts (clc, vanny and beckah again!)! and then we went to walki around I bought this green pen HAHA and then vanny was looking at mature clothes! nvm lah, anyway she is suitable for those.
it may sound weird arghhh i want to buy the MuffinMaker and the Sylvanian family settttt.... ahaha *hinthint* you can get that for my big day! Its 20-40 bucks thank you!

its in the children section so i said its weird. but i mean, for cuiqin and beckah who went crazy over the plushies... its ok... i TOTALLY understand. hehe!

FUN DAYS ARE AHEAD.
YAY!

a step in history.

2008-09-27T12:12:00.000+08:00

Be part of history. The world's first Formula1 night race.

i just have one thing to say: I'm finally part of history!!!

haha, yesterday night was only the practice, but it was cool too! The cars were like "ZOOM" super fast and LOUD. we had to buy earplugs, but i figured out it didn't really help much. oh and i took some videos too! but the quality is quite bad since i took it from my handphone.
Its much better if you see it for real cause on video you can even see the car! just this blurry image like coloured wind...

anyway! i really enjoyed myself yesterday!

whee;D

current mood: HAPPYYYYY(:

P.S. this has nothing to do with ms t*y btw, in case beckah and cq or maybe even clc are wondering.

2008-09-23T19:36:00.000+08:00

HAHA;D

i have not posted for 20 days! That's because the EOYs are coming!!!
AND today is a super unlucky day lah!

Wait. wait. wait. and at 5.00, it was postponed to friday. i am shocked.

ahh... ICCS is SO fun man! haha, rebekah was squealing like a baby (to my surprise!) and as usual we were being so funny and stuff! hehe. and the wooden blocks! ahhhh!!! hehe.

oh and cuiqin! hehe don't be sad about physics anymore. just keep thinking about the hi nana, or in other words, hi n* n* HAHA you know what right! ><

yay tomorrow is wednesday. the good day.

SNIP. SNAP. SNIP. SNAP.

2008-09-04T13:15:00.001+08:00

yay today i cut my hair.

2008-09-02T12:09:00.000+08:00

sorry mochie! your photos will have to wait.
i'll have to jot down all the homework and finish it all up by today so i'll have time to revise and all that for EYAs.

Sept Holiday Homework:

~~Math (Grphs worksheet 4, assignment 1 & 2)~~
~~Math (Geometry worksheet 1 - 5)~~
~~Physics PT (Planning, organising structure and start 1/4 of building)~~
~~Philo (is there?!!!) NO PHILO HW!!!~~
Analyse TKAM ~~& read through TKAM notes and worksheets~~
Math Revision (Non-routine problem sums)
Revision for SAs & EYAs

that should be all ;D

2008-08-29T20:44:00.000+08:00

YESH.

exams are finally over. ok that was one week ago.

but i am still busy & lazy to update! haha. so, anyway!
i think i'm gonnaa have a new "blog", just check for any updates! i don't think i'll be deleting this blog though...

AND today i went to samantha's house after going back to NY!!! Mochie is SO DARN ADORABLE.
she's SO smart as well!!! such a babe. i'll post photos the next time i update!

haiz... wish mochie was mine. well, she kinda is... i'm her godmother mah... haha

okie! byw

2008-08-17T19:04:00.000+08:00

I'm starting to find that I am so lazy to update this damn blog.

Okay i'm starting to think the Livejournal IS much more user-friendly. And personal.

So I'm thinking... should I just abandon this blog and get like Livejournal or wordpress or something?

the only thing i don't like about Wordpress is the wierd blue "W" logo at the top. haha ;P

2008-08-17T10:50:00.000+08:00

today i woke up at 8.45 AM! NOT to do work!
but to COOK XD

DON'T you DARE peek if you are NOT premikha!

To Premikha: hey, i have typed the whole damn recipe down there, you can try it out if you want, but i think i put too much dried chilli, so it was a bit too spicy.
By the way, that's the recipe for the SAUCE only... I'll tell you the fish one later... oh and the sauce is for the fish anyway. haha. i just sent an email to mrs goh.

XXX recipe:

2 small dried chilli
3 tablespoon rice vinegar
4 tablespoon honey
1 teaspoon dark soy sauce
1 teaspoon light soy sauce
XXX fish sauce --> I forgot how much i put! i go by "feeling", haha.

Optional: A pinch of butter mixed with flour (only if the sauce is too dilute.)

yups, so thats about it. easy right? it taste tangy and thai-y and nice! i ate that with my grilled salmon in the morning. haha.

BAH... you just peeked and saw the whole thing right?!!! =.=

ok lah, enough~
i have to do homework.

>,< (this means SUPER stressed.)

2008-08-16T21:49:00.000+08:00

YES! my sore throat has recovered. finally. before chinese orals! yes...!

2008-08-16T21:30:00.000+08:00

hahas. VERY long never write in this dead, dead blog already!
i made a thorough update.
anyway, I am busy with 2 things.
1. watching olympics!
2. homework and exams.
3. competition.

ok thats 3 things.

and i shall post photos another day. and i am very tired and busy. and i cannot sleep cos i have delayed handing up my lit pt draft to ms choo for 1 week, have lots of homework to do because i am such a slow poke, and because i still have to practise for my competition.
AND because i cannot slack anymore as tomorrow still have to go for some family celebration or some wierd meal my Aunt from Indonesia is treating us too.

cheers to all

;D

2008-08-02T13:08:00.001+08:00

-.-

finished history PT! im sooooo happy!
yesterday i finally managed to sleep like, a 2h nap?!! haha.

ok. anyway cuiqin ask me to post so i post lor. she very what leh! and i bet she's mugging or studying super hard lor... actually dont get offended when u see this lah

you know why!!!

means that we all need to WORK HARD to be smart. not like C_C... you know what i mean right... haha.

cause she's a born GENIUS.

2008-07-25T23:06:00.000+08:00

wahhh

ehh my blog not dead lah, just too busy to post. not like those smart ppl that do work so fast so have time to post :D see i posted now? haha.

ok lah will have a PROPER post (i don't see why this is improper?!) when i have the time SOON.

OH YEAH. today is striping and enrolment. I am an official Guide! But I am SUPER sad... i cried in the toilet. but i couldn't hold it any longer when emelyn and glenys gave out their sweet notes! like they went through so much with us... the enrolment stuff and all... weepweepweep.

my heart still has a sting of sourness... (wierd description)

don't see why some people didn't cry!

kay byes ;D

2008-06-28T22:12:00.001+08:00

WHEEE :D

School has started and i'm like =.= meaning like xian AND you can interpret it as TIRED.

Hey I am trying to make use of what we learnt in History ok!!! For the pictograms thingy...!

Oh by the way I was thinking of changing my blogskin cos this DAMN IDIOT FONT is sooo super small.

That's not the point!

I'm here telling you ALLL about SAMANTHA'S NEW DOG!!!! ITS COMING LIKE REALLLLLL SOON!

And its perfectly cute!

Here it is:

YAY isnt it ADORABLE?!!!!

im addicted to you, baby!

yay so im WAITING patiently for ITS arrival (its in australia now)

byes ppl! i'm linking new peeps so check it out.

2008-06-14T14:36:00.000+08:00

Today I just did a little review and browsed through my past emails.

And then I thought about what happened about a week ago.

I encountered several "disasters".

1. I was taking a walk at Serangoon (don't know where) and I saw this cute dog, quite big and was creamy in colour. He was clean and running fast, but very skinny I could see his ribcage. Me and my sister were very sad, and then after we bought some stuff we drove for quite a while and we saw him walking down the houses. Seems like his owner abandoned him and her has been finding his way back home.

Was pleading mommy to bring it to SPCA. But she was =.=! Was very angry with mom.

SO please if you have lost your dog or abandoned your dog please go and find it!!!! I last saw it near Serangoon. I'm not very sure where but I can confirm with my Dad.

2. I was at this place buying bubble tea (泡泡茶) yeah AND there were 2 sisters and the elder sister simply let the younger sister (about 2 years old i guess) DRAG and I really mean DRAGGGGG the dog on the leash the dog seems to be a 8 months old Pomeranian, cream in colour. And then the sister took back the lead and forced the dog, also dragged it over.

I wonder why people like them evn deserve to have a dog.

3. Yesterday in the evening I went to East Coast to cycle... saw 2 big dogs just love em!!!!

One of it was a German Shepherd. Walked in front of it just to check it was muzzled. It was.
The other was bigger than GS it was very big. Its length is like... about 110 cm? or even more. It was white and big and fluffy I love it!!! Didn't think it ws muzzled but it looks friendly and ok to be unmuzzled.

SO i know its kind of stupid everytime I talk about dogs.

And I'm just sorry to Louisa, Valerie, Joan and Premikha for always not being able to get presents when you were getting them... SORRY.

ok back to horrible drilling and practising (I am practising like a crazy woman now) piano... exams coming real soon.

aaargh just hope i'll get over and done with it.

mom plans for me to quit piano after this exam but i want to continue...

2008-06-04T18:23:00.000+08:00

aiya!

everyone saying that i never update my blog and that my blog is dead... AND, amelia my blog is not dead ok?

OK nothing to post, but, aiya, for the sake of my loyal readers, *cough*, like amelia, i shall post something.

YAY me and felicia lost our calculator, but I found mine. ANDD guess where it was? Obvious lah, of course it was with that CHANG CUI QIN. I knew it was her lor!

And I simply CANNOT concentrate on my work!!! People when you see me on msn MUST remind me to do my homework! I still have to do assessment books one... >.<

AND YAY amelia you must be my partner ok? I'll ask vanny too.

yay Gin is soooo cool!

ok byes. love you peeps.