Sunday, May 29, 2011
♥ It's just goodnight and not goodbye
(In the mood to post because 1. Listening to Taylor Swift now 2. AA yesterday!!!)
RG AA 2011: Uncanny Valley <3
So... holidays have started and it started off really well thanks to AA 2011.
I mean what can I say? No doubt I felt pretty apprehensive that our batch had to organize AA this year, perform and everything, but boy not only did everything work out, it was a BLAST!
I hope everyone who attended it felt the same way :) It was not just fun, it was magical. I totally felt hyped up, super energetic and of course the warm and fuzzy feeling came in too.
It wasn't just the actual thing itself. The WHOLE DAY was amazing. It was so fun to be freaking out over last minute things, and learning the dance, running through the dance so many million time with Heather, The man, Denise and Cherine and others who just learnt most of it today. Ripping shirts.
And of course it was really a day I could really put behind all the stressful things going on in my mind and really focus on something this exciting and fun. Honestly speaking I had a very bad day on Friday after PSC stress and of course many other things, plus I couldn't finish my AA gifts in time so I majorly freaked out at night. I was mad stressed but AA saved my life if not for AA I probably would've fainted and spent my night in the hospital haha.
But really.
I thought it was just gonna be another one of those Guides events. I thought it was just gonna be any other AA. I thought I was just gonna come home and forget about it.
But it wasn't.
I found myself smiling the entire way home, I didn't even mind when I was the last one to shower at 11.45, I did mind the glitter but got over it soon, I wrote a random note to a stranger because I felt so fuzzy inside, I couldn't stop thinking about how great the night (and day was), how I had my whole Guides family with me, how B11ATCH is always ALWAYS there for me. I love B11ATCH sosososoooooooo much I could never ever express it in words. Gosh the last time I really felt this way was in Taylor Swift's concert.
AA this year was simply enchanting. I can't bring myself to admit that it's our last AA, and it's over.
Reflections
So I had a bad day on Friday. Bad thing was, well I felt down and completely bare, I felt like a nothing and I was completely disenchanted. Funny how I managed to compose myself quite quickly despite all of that, and sort of hide it within myself so people couldn't tell. I guess I don't really want people to think I'm the kind who can't get over things easily. Well truth is I'm not.
But I'm quite pleased with the fact that I actually can make myself get over things easily. At least emotion-wise. I'll just keep telling myself to put myself in someone else's shoes, not to complain, and of course something I always tell my mum when she's hyperventilating over spilt water: It's done, it's done. Move on man. No point crying over spilt water get something done right, at the very least.
I thank my friends, B11ATCH, RG Guides for making me feel so much better the next day.
Holidays!
Yay, so this is very exciting for everyone :) There really wasn't any holiday mood going on I felt as if it was just another week, actually. Guess I'm too tensed up.
But for this year's June hols I decided to make a plan for myself, a list of things I have to accomplish by the time term starts. I don't want my June holidays to be another wasted month of my life, the kind of sucky hols where I return to school and feel like a dumb bird not knowing anything and regretting why I did not spend my time more wisely and make use of June hols better.
1. Academics
I think I really need to push myself! No idea what I did for the past half year I feel like I really didn't deserve marks for some of them e.g. History, SS and maybe Geog. Seriously I didn't mug or study for it esp. History I just read through the notes and did not memorise anything. And of course my disgusting Sciences -.-
Focus subjects would be: Chinese, Math, History, Sciences.
2. Personal Stuff
Yeah of course there's this. Some people may know what I've been up to the past month... haha well I'm gonna do more of it since there's more time, hopefully better ones will come soon! It's really fun and de-stressing so obviously I'm not quitting :) Also I want to spend more time with my family - go out with em more, do more things for them, stop being such a fussy kid and stuff. Spend more time with my friends. Start planning what I wanna do in future. Oh wait I already decided. Then I guess work towards it! And then, there's sleep. I need to get at least 8 hours of sleep on average, it's impossible to achieve that everyday so :)
3. Volunteer work/Good stuff for the people
If possible, I'd very much love to return to ACRES. After 1 1/2 year gosh I hope they haven't forgetten the silly girl and her friends who go down at really random dates doing crazy things. But this definitely needs some planning and coordination, I need to get my friends down to do it together with me because I can't go all the way down to CCK and do this alone.
YFC. Signed up for quite a few with Sheryl, Desiree and Amelia, and some with other people too. Can't wait for that!
Others: Well I've had plans to do something totally random and insane so maybe I should start now. Since I intend to bake a lot during the holidays, I'll probably go down to a nearby kindergarten or something to give it out! And also get my mum to bring me to the places she goes when she volunteers to help out and also the Old Folk's Home and Singapore Cancer Society.
One month isn't very long, but I guess I'll try to do as much as I can? Listening to 'Loser Like Me' now, I love this song. I absolutely love the fact that I'm just an ordinary, average girl living a normal life (well so I can fantasize and dream of that extraordinary life I've always wanted hahah) and being a complete loser! What? Being a loser is cool too okay.
Peace to the world.
